I am 17 + 2 today and getting ever closer to seeing Squirt again!! (2 weeks and 3 days incase you were wondering!)
I already said Id felt Squirt move a few weeks ago, and was wondering how long it would take until I felt him kick.
I didnt have long to wait!
Last Friday, when I was 16 + 4 I was lying in bed not feeling very much like I would sleep when I felt it!
There was no mistaking it even though obviously I have never felt my baby kick me before!
I knew instantly it was Squirt.
It felt like a far away thud but with the delicacy of a bubble popping (I stole part of that description from someone else but it perfectly describes how it feels!)
I have felt him kick every day since then, some times more obvious than others.
Everytime I feel it I smile, my precious baby is getting big and strong enough to connect with me, I find it amazing!
Apparently by this stage he can hear us aswell, although Im sure we sound very odd and muffled to him!
I wonder how long it will be before he reacts and kicks when we talk to him.
Looking at my belly photo form this week and judging by some comments I have got I do look pregnant in most of my clothes but I still dont feel like I do.
I feel chubby and feel lilke I just look chubby and not at all pregnant!
I guess it depends what Im wearing but hopefully soon it will be obvious that my expanding belly is thanks to Squirt and not because I am festively plump!
And so much for my morning sickness being gone!
I have been sick 3 times in the last 5 mornings and only wasnt sick this morning because I forced down a biscuit just in time!
I hope it is not going to stick around too much longer because it is not a fun way to start the day!
But thankfully I am actually liking food again during the day so I have that to be happy about!
I have done quite abit of packing in the last week, I suppose I dont have much time left to get it all done really. Most of the small bits and pieces downstairs are packed away now, except for things form the kitchen but there is still lots to do.
I am just glad that I have most of my energy back or it would be a complete nightmare!
Wednesday, 30 November 2011
Monday, 21 November 2011
Changes
16 weeks today!
Wow.
I am getting really bad at updating this.
I promised myself I would write on here or in my diary at least once a week so I would have something to look back on once Squirt was here.
Well I am just as bad at keeping my diary up to date.
The one thing I have been good at doing is taking weekly pictures of my bump and weighing myself. ( I am strill 2 lbs down on my prepregnancy weight!)
But I have an excuse.
We have been very busy with sorting out moving house.
Contracts are exchanged and we are set to move on 19th December.
It doesnt really bother me that it is very close to Christmas, I just want to get into our new house and get settled.
But it will mean I will be kept busy right up to Squirts 20 week scan so Im hoping that makes time fly!
(Its is currently 3 weeks and 4 days away, not that Im counting or anything!)
Aswell as changes to our home I am noticing lots of changes in me.
I seem to have popped, finally!
I have had a small bulge for around 6-8 weeks now but this morning when I took my picture, I actually have a proper bump. A tiny one but a proper one!
And aswell as this my boobs are still growing, which I am more than pleased about now they have stopped constantly hurting!
But more exciting than my boobs being bigger is feeling Squirt move!!
I thought I had felt him a while ago but I dont think that was him.
However around 3 weeks ago I woke up and felt a sensation of a bubble popping just under my skin!
I just knew it was Squirt!
Since then I feel him on and off, some days more than others.
It is great feeling those little flutters but I am still very excited to feel his strong little kicks. Who knows how soon that will be.
My morning sickness is almost gone.
I was excited yesterday morning because Ihadnt been sick in a week,
Then I went and ate too much yesterday and was sick in the middle of the night!
So it remains to be seen if it is really gone or not.
Having our doppler is really helping me get to our ultrasound without going crazy.
Even with feeling Squirt move there is no substitute for hearing that little heart beating away.
Always so fast, always so strong.
It sounds almost busy, like it has so much to do and so little time!
But even the doppler isnt without worry.
A few days ago we thought we heard Squirts heart slow a little so obviously I worried instantly!
But then I realised it was actually the cord and not his heart and he had just kicked it away.
Then the same thing happened today and we realised that actually it probably wasnt even the cord, but my heartbeat getting mixed up with his, which makes sense because it slows to the exact same rate as mine!
We think it is my blood vessel that supplies the uterus, it definately is not Squirt anyway!
I hate how easily I can get worried about Squirt, but was so relieved to reaslise he is ok and his little heart is as strong as ever!
And now the first outward sign I have of Squirts exastance, my bump!
Wow.
I am getting really bad at updating this.
I promised myself I would write on here or in my diary at least once a week so I would have something to look back on once Squirt was here.
Well I am just as bad at keeping my diary up to date.
The one thing I have been good at doing is taking weekly pictures of my bump and weighing myself. ( I am strill 2 lbs down on my prepregnancy weight!)
But I have an excuse.
We have been very busy with sorting out moving house.
Contracts are exchanged and we are set to move on 19th December.
It doesnt really bother me that it is very close to Christmas, I just want to get into our new house and get settled.
But it will mean I will be kept busy right up to Squirts 20 week scan so Im hoping that makes time fly!
(Its is currently 3 weeks and 4 days away, not that Im counting or anything!)
Aswell as changes to our home I am noticing lots of changes in me.
I seem to have popped, finally!
I have had a small bulge for around 6-8 weeks now but this morning when I took my picture, I actually have a proper bump. A tiny one but a proper one!
And aswell as this my boobs are still growing, which I am more than pleased about now they have stopped constantly hurting!
But more exciting than my boobs being bigger is feeling Squirt move!!
I thought I had felt him a while ago but I dont think that was him.
However around 3 weeks ago I woke up and felt a sensation of a bubble popping just under my skin!
I just knew it was Squirt!
Since then I feel him on and off, some days more than others.
It is great feeling those little flutters but I am still very excited to feel his strong little kicks. Who knows how soon that will be.
My morning sickness is almost gone.
I was excited yesterday morning because Ihadnt been sick in a week,
Then I went and ate too much yesterday and was sick in the middle of the night!
So it remains to be seen if it is really gone or not.
Having our doppler is really helping me get to our ultrasound without going crazy.
Even with feeling Squirt move there is no substitute for hearing that little heart beating away.
Always so fast, always so strong.
It sounds almost busy, like it has so much to do and so little time!
But even the doppler isnt without worry.
A few days ago we thought we heard Squirts heart slow a little so obviously I worried instantly!
But then I realised it was actually the cord and not his heart and he had just kicked it away.
Then the same thing happened today and we realised that actually it probably wasnt even the cord, but my heartbeat getting mixed up with his, which makes sense because it slows to the exact same rate as mine!
We think it is my blood vessel that supplies the uterus, it definately is not Squirt anyway!
I hate how easily I can get worried about Squirt, but was so relieved to reaslise he is ok and his little heart is as strong as ever!
And now the first outward sign I have of Squirts exastance, my bump!
Wednesday, 26 October 2011
Love at first sight
I dont know why but I started to get a little nervous the day before Squirts scan.
P wasnt helping, he went all quiet and I could tell he was scared.
He admitted it but said it was because of the memories of that scan room more than anything.
Why were we both scared?
We had heard Squirts hb that very day, he was alive, and kicking, from the sounds of it!
But there was still those tiny flutters of nerves.
At the sametime I still knew Squirt would be ok but I couldnt make the nerves vanish completely, it was strange.
The minute that ultrasound probe was pressed against my stomach and I saw Ps face light up and him say wow I relaxed!
Of course Squirt had grown, of course he was ok!
I guess somebody who is that precious to you, you will never take for granted.
They have to be seen to be believed.
Although I knew what a 12 week ultrasound looked like I couldnt believe that Squirt had grown that much in 4 weeks.
From a tiny little blob to a fully formed baby.
He has a perfect little button nose and gorgeous little lips.
The ultrsound tech even counted all his fingers and toes, I was blown away!
And we werent wrong.
He is so very active!
He spent the entire scan kicking me or trying to eat his hand!
He even waved at P but I missed that because the ultrasound tech hadnt turned the screen enough!
Now I know I am biased but Squirt is the most beautiful baby I have ever seen!
I am more in love with him than I thought was possible!
P wasnt helping, he went all quiet and I could tell he was scared.
He admitted it but said it was because of the memories of that scan room more than anything.
Why were we both scared?
We had heard Squirts hb that very day, he was alive, and kicking, from the sounds of it!
But there was still those tiny flutters of nerves.
At the sametime I still knew Squirt would be ok but I couldnt make the nerves vanish completely, it was strange.
The minute that ultrasound probe was pressed against my stomach and I saw Ps face light up and him say wow I relaxed!
Of course Squirt had grown, of course he was ok!
I guess somebody who is that precious to you, you will never take for granted.
They have to be seen to be believed.
Although I knew what a 12 week ultrasound looked like I couldnt believe that Squirt had grown that much in 4 weeks.
From a tiny little blob to a fully formed baby.
He has a perfect little button nose and gorgeous little lips.
The ultrsound tech even counted all his fingers and toes, I was blown away!
And we werent wrong.
He is so very active!
He spent the entire scan kicking me or trying to eat his hand!
He even waved at P but I missed that because the ultrasound tech hadnt turned the screen enough!
Now I know I am biased but Squirt is the most beautiful baby I have ever seen!
I am more in love with him than I thought was possible!
Tuesday, 18 October 2011
New Ground
It seems Squirt is one active little baby.
I am so glad we started using the doppler early on as I think if we had first tired now we would have been discouraged.
At 9 weeks he was so easy to find as he seemed to hang out in the same place all the time.
Obviously now at 11 weeks he is alot more mobile and moves so much we end up chasing him around with the doppler!
His heartbeat has got much stronger in those 2 weeks and there are lots of movement noises going on in ther aswell.
I find it so amazing to be able to hear how my precious baby is developing inside me.
We have our 12 week scan next monday and I cant wait to see Squirt and see how much he has changed since his blob photo we have!
Aswell as hearing changes I can also see changes in me.
My stomach has got a noticeable bulge to it now, just above my bikini line.
That bulge is Squirt growing up into my tummy, I love it!
I am also getting covered in blue veins, another thing I find amazing!
I guess the next big change will be me starting to show and feeling kicks which I know wont happen for a while but they will be well worth the wait!
I am so glad we started using the doppler early on as I think if we had first tired now we would have been discouraged.
At 9 weeks he was so easy to find as he seemed to hang out in the same place all the time.
Obviously now at 11 weeks he is alot more mobile and moves so much we end up chasing him around with the doppler!
His heartbeat has got much stronger in those 2 weeks and there are lots of movement noises going on in ther aswell.
I find it so amazing to be able to hear how my precious baby is developing inside me.
We have our 12 week scan next monday and I cant wait to see Squirt and see how much he has changed since his blob photo we have!
Aswell as hearing changes I can also see changes in me.
My stomach has got a noticeable bulge to it now, just above my bikini line.
That bulge is Squirt growing up into my tummy, I love it!
I am also getting covered in blue veins, another thing I find amazing!
I guess the next big change will be me starting to show and feeling kicks which I know wont happen for a while but they will be well worth the wait!
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
Doppler £50, Ultrasound Gel £3....................
....................Hearing your babies heartbeat for the first time, Priceless!!
We invested in a home doppler, a proper one, it may have cost alot but I dont care.
It is worth every penny and is the best thing I have ever bought.
At first I was scared to use it, what if we couldnt find Squirt and I got all worried for no reason.
But P convinced me that by week 9 we should find our little Squirt, so I braved my fears and we tried.
Almost straight away we heard the most amazing sound, one I will never forget as long as I live.
The fast galloping, steady beat of our babies heart, coming from within my tummy!
I couldnt speak, I just laid there grinning at P, almost unable to believe that was Squirt, but at the same time knowing without a doubt it really was him.
My precious baby, with a strong fast heartbeat!
I could listen to that sound all day long, it is beautiful.
Ive recorded it on my phone, so that whenever I need to hear it I can.
Squirt has a hb of between 160-180 at 9 weeks.
I cannot wait to hear how it changes over the next 31 weeks as he grows bigger and stronger!
We invested in a home doppler, a proper one, it may have cost alot but I dont care.
It is worth every penny and is the best thing I have ever bought.
At first I was scared to use it, what if we couldnt find Squirt and I got all worried for no reason.
But P convinced me that by week 9 we should find our little Squirt, so I braved my fears and we tried.
Almost straight away we heard the most amazing sound, one I will never forget as long as I live.
The fast galloping, steady beat of our babies heart, coming from within my tummy!
I couldnt speak, I just laid there grinning at P, almost unable to believe that was Squirt, but at the same time knowing without a doubt it really was him.
My precious baby, with a strong fast heartbeat!
I could listen to that sound all day long, it is beautiful.
Ive recorded it on my phone, so that whenever I need to hear it I can.
Squirt has a hb of between 160-180 at 9 weeks.
I cannot wait to hear how it changes over the next 31 weeks as he grows bigger and stronger!
Monday, 26 September 2011
Cloud Nine
Today we went for our first u/s for Squirt.
It was an emergency scan because I had some heavyish spotting on saturday and was terrified I might lose Squirt.
The spotting stopped completely a couple of hours after it began and was replaced with brown cm which was gone by Sunday afternoon.
Strangely enough after the initial shock of seeing the blood I actual still had a good feeling about Squirt and this morning on the way to the hospital I didnt have that same fear Id had with Pup and Lumpy.
I felt calm and excited to see my baby!
I guess Mum knows best because we saw our precious Squirt on the screen almost straight away!
Squirts heart beating away is the most beautiful and perfect sight I have ever seen and I will never forget that moment!
P was crying while we were looking at Squirt and I just couldnt stop grinning!
Our baby, our Squirt is alive and has a heartbeat!
Aswell as having a heartbeat Squirt is measuring exactly the right size, down to the the day that FF keep telling me right!
So I am 7+6 today and go back in exactly 4 weeks time to see my gorgeous Squirt again!
I have never been so happy!
It was an emergency scan because I had some heavyish spotting on saturday and was terrified I might lose Squirt.
The spotting stopped completely a couple of hours after it began and was replaced with brown cm which was gone by Sunday afternoon.
Strangely enough after the initial shock of seeing the blood I actual still had a good feeling about Squirt and this morning on the way to the hospital I didnt have that same fear Id had with Pup and Lumpy.
I felt calm and excited to see my baby!
I guess Mum knows best because we saw our precious Squirt on the screen almost straight away!
Squirts heart beating away is the most beautiful and perfect sight I have ever seen and I will never forget that moment!
P was crying while we were looking at Squirt and I just couldnt stop grinning!
Our baby, our Squirt is alive and has a heartbeat!
Aswell as having a heartbeat Squirt is measuring exactly the right size, down to the the day that FF keep telling me right!
So I am 7+6 today and go back in exactly 4 weeks time to see my gorgeous Squirt again!
Saturday, 10 September 2011
Something to worry about
I have found myself starting to worry these last few days, but not about what I would expect to be worried about.
There is no worrying for Squirt, not because I dont care (obviously I care about Squirt more than I care about myself) but mostly because I just have this feeling that he/she will be ok.
Strangely enough I dont have a feeling about whether Squirt is a boy or a girl like I did with Lumpy and Pup.
Mostly I feel Squirt could be a girl but then I find myself thinking about Squirt being a boy instead so at the moment Im not sure.
The worrying is about us moving house
We have had an offer accepted on a new house so it looks like we really are moving.
The enormity of it is hitting me now its real.
While I am pregnant and should be avoiding lifting things we have to pack up our entire house and move it somewhere else.
Of course there is a reason for us moving.
We need more space. The new house has two double bedrooms and one single (Squirts nursery)
It has a downstairs toilet and an en suite to our bedroom.
It has a huge back garden for M to run around in like crazy, and for Squirt to play in when he/she is bigger.
It is perfect for us.
Yet part of me doesnt want to leave our lovely little house.
I love it, it is home.
The new house wont be home for a while.
I know it will be one day and then I will love the new house too.
Part of the worrying has been down to not wanting to leave, and part of it has been worrying that something might not go to plan and we might not end up moving.
I think I just need somethng to worry about!
And I am so very glad to discover that none of my worrying has been directed at whether Squirt is ok or not.
I have had a few moments on the last few days where Ive actually 'remembered' that Im pregnant.
Ive been day dreaming, as I do alot, and suddenly realised that I am actually, really and truely pregnant, its strange!
Its like Im finally able to let go and let Squirt grow without feeling like I need to worry to protect him/her.
Its a good feeling!
There is no worrying for Squirt, not because I dont care (obviously I care about Squirt more than I care about myself) but mostly because I just have this feeling that he/she will be ok.
Strangely enough I dont have a feeling about whether Squirt is a boy or a girl like I did with Lumpy and Pup.
Mostly I feel Squirt could be a girl but then I find myself thinking about Squirt being a boy instead so at the moment Im not sure.
The worrying is about us moving house
We have had an offer accepted on a new house so it looks like we really are moving.
The enormity of it is hitting me now its real.
While I am pregnant and should be avoiding lifting things we have to pack up our entire house and move it somewhere else.
Of course there is a reason for us moving.
We need more space. The new house has two double bedrooms and one single (Squirts nursery)
It has a downstairs toilet and an en suite to our bedroom.
It has a huge back garden for M to run around in like crazy, and for Squirt to play in when he/she is bigger.
It is perfect for us.
Yet part of me doesnt want to leave our lovely little house.
I love it, it is home.
The new house wont be home for a while.
I know it will be one day and then I will love the new house too.
Part of the worrying has been down to not wanting to leave, and part of it has been worrying that something might not go to plan and we might not end up moving.
I think I just need somethng to worry about!
And I am so very glad to discover that none of my worrying has been directed at whether Squirt is ok or not.
I have had a few moments on the last few days where Ive actually 'remembered' that Im pregnant.
Ive been day dreaming, as I do alot, and suddenly realised that I am actually, really and truely pregnant, its strange!
Its like Im finally able to let go and let Squirt grow without feeling like I need to worry to protect him/her.
Its a good feeling!
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